Want A New Life

It has been a couple of years since my very first blog, but not much has happened these last couple of years. Today Cabul came like he usually does, but today I just didn't want to fool with him. He kept trying to pull me back, but I just kept pushing him away. I told him if he didn't hurry up the king would start wondering where his guard was and we both might get in trouble, but in all honesty I just wanted him to leave. I am tired of this life and I want a way out of it, but I dont know how.